The perfectly imperfect mug

So today I decided to go into a thrift store to see what I could find, Firstly I was looking for something I could sell, Then I came across this starbucks mug, Typically in the reseller world anything starbucks pretty much sells well on ebay (depending on condition and if it is a seasonal one or not , either way these are collectable to someone) And as I scrolled looking on ebay for this mug (as it is christmas themed and from 2013 I thought to just check its worth, if any) Then I noticed whoever donated this mug never though to wash it (eew) though I always wash things I intend to use from a thift store or not,( I cant stand germs!)

But what got me was it took me FOREVER to decide if I really wanted the thing, Something that I find myself doing is (over-thinking something when I know I want it) I mean it was not expensive to begin with, Really only 1 pound to buy($1.30) I still found myself thinking about it. Such as "Do I need it?" "But these things cost at least 6 pounds sometimes more to buy etc." Then the reseller in me noticed that the bottom of the mug (as show in the photo) has a crack. A reseller blow, IT was like I was fighting with my reseller mind and normal mind by saying It's starbucks and I want i!" Two worlds at once! GO me! Still once I DID decide "What the heck i'll buy it!" As I was waiting to pay for my mug, I saw a man come into the store. (He is actually the main reason (sorta) I am making this post." HE came in picked up one football shirt and was like "WOW this is so nice, Look! WOW and its German" I mean he was showing even the shop assistant and he even thanked them for this shirt. (A shirt that was donated by someone as it was still new with tags!) Still what got me is his pure excitement and appreciation for this football shirt! His behaviour reflected me! In how excited and appreciative I get when I find something or am given something! But it also made me kick myself to as I missed my opportunity to sell something I missed lol But I was happy for him, He showed me how to pay attention more to things to buy next time! He made my imperfect starbucks mug, Well perfect for me! And hey I got a bargain to! Who knew how a mug and a complete stranger show me how to appreciate even the not so important things! Such as I was hesitant to buy the starbucks mug for a chip on the bottom when I knew I wanted a starbucks mug to begin with! The stranger showed me to stop fighting my feelings on what gives me joy!

UK and USA possibilities

Today whilst in the coffee shop enjoying a coffee, I felt this feeling of what I can only describe as love and appreciation, You see I live in the UK, Well England to be more specific, And have so far 20+ years it's something that once I got to 20 I just kinda lost count of the years so now whenever someone asks me how long I've lived here I just add the + sign so I don't have to actually think about the time. But Lately I been on a different road in my life, going through spiritual growing pains, OR maybe to put it more bluntly Spiritual awakening/ Kundalini awakening. It feels like a mesh of two. kinda like two seasons that smash together if that is even humanly possible. Still, I been om this road of finding my way financially. I been reading books lately which doesn't seem to be me, I never was (as now i actually am) a book person, I stumbled across a book that got me started. But the thing i am noticing is I had this idea of wanting to make my relationship for the lack of the word better with how I see money. I also noticed that I went from job to job never lasting and when I mean NEVER I actually me NEVER even from my first job at 16. I always hated to be told what to do, I somehow was and still am a rebel to some sorts. But only this year I have realized and took the leap to stop working. I think it took some faith and the fact I am lucky to have someone support this for me whilst I am on this journey. It started with me selling on ebay more, then I got fired up, then got scammed (but hey that's business right?) to then getting super anxiety about the sound coming up on ebay thinking its someone complaining, I then stumbled to Amazon selling etc. Still I have this burning desire to work between two countries ( england and america) I mean all my family lives in America so it gives me more opportunities then most, To be a reseller, OR to craft etc. Being between two countries has never been easy, I miss my family then i miss england when I am in America, it's like a never ending battle I can't win. But then i realized lately that because I am so passionate to be able to deal with money in both countries. I thought the only way I can see family more and have the financial freedom I so desire and so deserve is to make it work in two countries somehow, someway What once seemed like a hardship me being in England and my family being in US, Has flipped itself into an idea that not many people can have it takes pain and missing to a whole other level. Sure it doesn't mean it will be easy. HArdship flows where ever in the universe you may ride but you deal with it when it comes And if you are passionate about what you want and know what you don't want, Who can stop you? The fact it could open many doorways i never knew possible makes it that much more exciting. ITs begs the question on HOW it can work? and what i do to make that happen? Then it makes me question Can I really make the impossible, possible? would this path completely change me even more then i am already changing at this very moment? Will I loose people along this path? along this way? Will it consume me to the point I live and breath being who i am meant to be? can I go against the grain and tread where others do not dare to tread? Can I pursue something I have yet to know what i'm pursuing? Could this take me down many other paths into a big circle, Just when I think I know where i am going I suddenly don't? Who knows ? But it will sure be fun giving this a go! whatever it may lead me.